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this isn't the exact car, but it's the model of the 98 ford escort I'm looking at buying.
it's black, and pretty cute, with not too high miles and good gas mileage.
I am reaaaally excited about getting it; a woman we know is selling it for a good price and it looks like exactly what I need!
so this would totally be an answer to prayer, isn't it cool? | | |
| that's it.
I quit.
at least for today.
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what did I quit for that day? trying so hard to have peacefulness and joy. I think. maybe. that day was hard.
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and no I did not steal rach's bible, or actually jordan's, I had mine before he got his... I think anyway. : )
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| I've recently figured out why it's so hard to get me satisfied.
because I was born with desires way out of proportion to many.
they're huge.
I get these glimpses of the most heart-swelling beauty and joy, and can't stop longing after it.
can't stop longing after it.
can't stop seeking it.
my desires are ridiculously huge.
they're supernatural.
and the ability to have them satiated is missing. it's missing because of my sin, the sin in this world.
but
nevertheless.
redemption has happened! glory is now in sight once again. how much will I see in this life?
I don't know. but that won't stop me from trying to gain as much as possible until I'm gone.
see this whirl of color, peace, and warmth, is addicting. inebriating, intoxicating.
once you've had the taste there's no going back.
the world is not enough for me. it can not afford the things that I adore.
[thank you God for my unsatisfaction and ridiculously huge measures of desire]
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| xanga.
xanga xanga xanga....
internet.
internet internet internet...
beginning to hate them. ok not soooo much internet, but xanga. and not hate, just dislike I suppose.
I'm 20. and I feel like when I'm on xanga I'm stuck in my mid teens.
God give me grace to make habits worthy of the gospel, worthy of you, pleasing to you.
this beloved site just may get deleted.
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| mini golf was lovely on friday, thanks you guys for showing up!
and to those of you who didn't- you missed out! : - P
it was a good way to start off my 20th year; God knows when to best give His blessings and gifts.
here's a song that has helped free me to surrender all to Jesus-
Take all I am, Lord, and all that I cling to
You are my Savior I owe everything to
Take all the treasures that lie in my storehouse
They cannot follow when I enter Your house
So I surrender all to You
I surrender all
Take all my cravings for vain recognition
Fleshly indulgence and worldly ambition
I want so much Lord to make You the focus
To serve You in secret and never be noticed
Take all my hunger for all that’s forbidden
Every desire and sin I keep hidden
Search me and know me I want to bring to You
A life that is holy and sanctified through You
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